On binge eating and yin-yang energies
tw: mentions of disordered eating I’ve struggled with binge eating behaviors for a long time, knowingly since I was in college, but likely for almost all of my life, unknowingly. I remember when I was a kid, my mom bought me a bag of sour gummy worms, and when we got home, she put it in a cabinet where I theoretically wouldn’t be able to access it. But one day when I was alone, I climbed on a chair to open the cabinet and ended up demolishing that bag after doing that multiple times throughout the day. That was way too many sour gummy worms for my stomach and body to handle, even as a kid! More recently, I’ve been aware of how I use binge eating to self soothe—as a type of unhealthy coping mechanism that in the process of doing it, causes other short- and long-term discomforts to arise. Notably, I feel like it will be very difficult for me to deepen my self-love and self-trust if I maintain this self-sabotaging pattern. During the February silent meditation retreat here at MAPLE, I had
Hey Julia, I'd be interested in hearing more about your experience in Monastery, since I'm considering that myself.
ReplyDeleteI'd go immediately, but I find it challenging to let go of my work. I cannot find your contact info anywhere.
Best wishes,
Matej
Hi Matej! We just got out of a silent retreat this morning. I would love to talk to you more about my experience here and to help you. You can reach out to me at kishin (at) cml (dot) me
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