Everything is connected

(More stream of consciousness than my usual blog posts, inspired by some poetry I've been reading and life!!!)

Things that you do are not isolated. This is why small things can have big effects. Like parenting. And also proving things to yourself.

That's why I like taking walks so much. Everything is a metaphor. The cliché of the journey is more important than the destination. That's why I do weird things on my walks too, like turn around abruptly, walk backwards, skip, sing, etc.

I know this is true because I've seen the effects of standing up for myself in one area of my life manifest in others.

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